Will you ever?

I had this draft in my carriage for more than a month 

Frit and overwrought, didn’t have the courage for publication 

But my dream last night emboldens me to take the tread

So, I say, que sera sera, let’s do this!

*

Up to now I still cannot believe, what was written a year ago became the reality of twenty-twenty-two 

On point, without missing a line as if I knew what is forthcoming

If you are following, it started from The Most Abhorred Alphabet Rune, to Silent Sob, down to Catch Me posts

Now this one as the continuation

*

Geez, it creeps the hell out of me. I am not a clairvoyant!

I was just merely a romantic soul then pouring my heart out into writing 

Imagining my perfectly imperfect lover in a perfectly imperfect sphere

Genuinely loving each other despite all the boulders

*

K had been animated – from an imagery to a warm flesh

Brought to life, brought to me as if to fulfil a message and a quest 

A message to not give up love

A quest to tell me I am worth it

*

Oh, I love you K. 

No, I am crazily in love with you

You are now my favourite alphabet letter– one that I will forever regard

But will you ever? 

*

Will you ever realise 

How much you’ve allowed me to experience that something rigid to find 

Unconditional love that exists, one that completes and fulfils every part

A gift, a destiny, a soulmate I am able to finally feel, smell and touch

*

Will you ever understand 

How much I can give and how much I can risk 

That even the most hurtful jabber from Mother Earth I could elegantly take

Just to keep you not just today or tomorrow but until our last breaths

*

Will you ever fully know

How deep I could endure and how much I could sacrifice 

That even the most painful pricks from the wagging tongues of human breeds I can graciously bear

Just to be with you not just until our last breaths but until the next phase  

*

Will you ever fully feel

How much you’ve touched my life and how much you’ve changed it for the better

That even my strongest I-don’t-care default character was buried 6-feet under 

Just to show how much you mean

*

Will you ever be at peace 

That I can wait, faithfully (like you always say) 

Though you have to spruce things out religiously (like I always say)

Protect what’s yours at all costs not just for me but for the future of the tiny tootsies

*

I know it’s a sounding yes 

But just a reminder to keep the innocence 

Blessings from heaven are still the best 

For a lifelong covenant we both will take

*

Twenty -twenty-three, I will be waiting in the island 

Hopeful. Prayerful. Faithful.

Will you ever come?

Will my favourite letter and the first letter of your name be your answer?

*

Oh, will you ever…

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