Why is it that the echoes of your name no longer stir my heart? Is this the true power of words, or the silent aftermath of their impact? You’ve apologised, and I know you meant it. Yet, with each passing day, I feel my connection to you fading, slowly deteriorating. I’ve been wrestling with this question for days now. Am I falling out of love with you?
Perhaps it’s because your words have left deep scars, or maybe it’s because your actions fail to show that I hold any significance in your life. We’ve had our golden days, days filled with laughter and shared drinks, days spent in the company of friends and family. But strangely enough, I no longer yearn for those moments. I no longer look forward to seeing you. It’s an odd sensation.
Right now, all I crave is solitude. I want to immerse myself in my work, focus on the business. I’m responsive when it comes to that, but I just don’t feel like engaging in conversations or chats with you anymore. I don’t seek your presence, which is strange considering my usual tendency to cling to you. It’s as if a switch has been flipped and the person who used to yearn for your company is now content in her solitude. It’s a confusing and tumultuous storm of emotions that I’m trying to navigate through.
Maybe the feelings have evaporated, and maybe that’s okay. Maybe it’s a sign for me to grow up and focus on what truly matters.
Don’t misunderstand me, I still harbour care for you. It’s just that I can’t comprehend why, out of the blue, it feels like the spark has been extinguished. I haven’t found someone new, nor am I seeking anyone else. Perhaps it’s your past relationships that continue to unsettle me, or perhaps it’s a creeping insecurity about our future together. What will it look like? Or maybe, just maybe, I’ve truly fallen out of love.
But amidst this storm of emotions and confusion, there lies a glimmer of hope. A hope that this is just a phase, a transient period of emotional turmoil that will soon pass. A hope that everything will eventually fall back into place and be okay again. This hope is what keeps me going through these trying times. But for now, this is my reality. This is how I feel.